Depressed.

Don't know why.

.. in the meantime, more of the littles:

Yum

What do you mean there's no more??!

The leap

The next few steps have been taken. Now it’s time for the leap and I would greatly lie if I didn’t say I’m getting cold feet. The plan is to move to Virginia in the November time frame. Probably one of the stupidest financial moves of our lives HOWEVER we’ve always wanted to leave the Midwest and this is a great opportunity. Timing is also good as baby G. is not old enough to care where he is and before he gets into school I would really like to find HOME, wherever home is.

We've lived under a star of impermanence here as we've always talked about moving. Well, I would really really like to be somewhere "for the foreseeable future". I was on the airline's website choosing the flights to and from and it really hit me: other than the commitments we have made regarding this move, at the moment there is nothing driving my desire to leave this place. Certainly later I will care, but currently, as long as I have a bed and a roof over our heads I really couldn't care less where I am located geographically. Is it that I've adjusted to living here and despite having been so obsessed with leaving I just don't mind the place anymore or is it that I have been so tired that I really don't care? So of course, this makes everything a lot harder especially since a financial sacrifice is required.

I think it's safe to say I'm kinda freaking out.

It's June already?!

Time to freak out a little.
1. The renters move into our house August 1st.
2. Hubby has a ton of work left to do until they move in.
3. Although we are moving OUT we have nowhere to move INTO for the next 5 months.
4. Nanny can only work every other week.
5. I have 4 classes to make up.
6. The insurance company is totally screwing us on the L&D.
7. We're flying to DC in 3 weeks to find the area we're moving to in November.. with the little.

Long time .. and some post-blue moon philosophizing

It's been a loooong time since writing last. It's been very hard to write in the past year, even in my private non-digital diary. I have so much to say nothing comes out. And then, after a while, the only thoughts that come to mind are related to baby G. I was thinking about how many other topics I have knowledge and experience and thoughts about on a daily basis yet most of the time the only thing I can say is "You is such a cutie .. but you can't haz cheezburger yet." I know, not APA formatted .. what can I say .. i've had a beer and feel rebellious. Talking about 'i' and the APA .. the whole business of 'I' kind of bothers me .. there's a lot of you out there I should be calling You .. me, on the other hand, .. i'm an 'i'.. not and 'I'. That's not because i don't believe i'm an important member of society who is making her community a better place and raising a good citizen of the United States and the World in general, but because only very few people deserve a capitalized letter .. i am not one of them. I mean really, for a nation of Christians (94.4% based on the ARIS study) the only words capitalized because of something other than their placement in the sentence are I, God and Him - when referring to God. What about You?